Wait

There is nothing as bad and frustrating as waiting.

Those days that build up the nerves, the anxiety that makes you forget something as normal as eating, the anticipation of the response and the fear of negativity, each having an equal probability, and most of all it is the question of “What then?” that hangs in the air. It makes one doubt their own abilities; look for comfort and reassurance from someone other than your own. It drives you crazy. It is weird, the way things work. The insomnia that gives you sleepless nights, the extra energy that you always seem exude, makes you jumpy and irritable. Hours feel like days and the days appear like weeks and seem to stretch into months. You live in a limbo, where the notion of time is nonexistent till the judgment day arrives. And when it does ascend, it doesn’t matter how long had it been, just that you know it right there, with no regards to the nature of the outcome.

May be this wait, the anonymous seductress, makes you search and look deeper at your insecurities. Perhaps it is just a ploy to test your resolve or possibly it was just an allusion to make you see your real needs.

Whatever it is, the wait, at the end of it, you will be as clear in your decision as the starless sky. The wait as you will realize will not wait forever…